Saturday, October 27, 2007


A new phrase Im living by: Whatever you do in life, dont let it be for nothing

This means soo many things to me. Mainly this: Everything you do should have a purpose, I dont care what it is. If your stuck on some guy and your over-calling him, breaking your neck to see him, cooking him breakfast..ask yourself why am I doing this? Am I getting anything out of it.?? If you feel he's worth it and your getting something out of it Anything! Then by all means ..keep doing it. If your sleeping with every tom, dick and harry...are they giving you money?? the attention you want? ...Every minute of the day we need to be fulfilling our purpose. When Im sitting there amongst a group of friends and Im dead silent, they think something is wrong, when in reality Im observing. I find inspiration any and everywhere...little do they know they just inspired a poem or short story. Lately I've really been on a mission to get things done...up and running. Im soo tired of is cheap. Time is money and I cant afford anymore distractions. The momentum cannot stop!!

--Love changes and best friends become strangers!!
To my best friend::

When you moved things seemed to change. Though we both adjusted the best way we knew how, still it wasn't the same. We started to make countless efforts and realized this 15 yr friendship is worth the effort. You have new friends that I know nothing about, a new life. When we talk Im interested in everything you say/do, though I feel like a stranger, its like getting to know each other all over. All of our adventures consisted of "US". I miss that, but I know we both have to do what we have to do...though we both formed new habits and spend more time apart than together. I still know who has my best interest at heart, I know who will be at my wedding crying more than I am, I know that If I choose the wrong man you'll give me the best advice possible , wanting me to just be happy and taking me to the cheesecake factory listening to me cry when he breaks my heart. New people in my life can never change my heart. Till this day when Im sad and I cry I think to myself "what would she do/say" you have this ability to brighten up my day only saying a few small words. And maybe I dont appreciate you as much as I should sometimes. You may not know this but, you've guided me all my life , there were times when I didn't think I could make it, I didn't wanna make it, but watching you gave me strength. You motivated me..Im only soo strong because I learned how to follow your lead for soo many years. I miss our childhood and latenight phone conversations, I miss your shyness around boys , I miss us getting in trouble together, lying together and getting caught together. I miss our hugs and cries. As we grow and mature, and each day brings us more wisdom..Words cannot express how proud of you I am, from a little spoiled child, annoying me with a million questions you've grown into a responsible , independent..dare I say "adult" without losing the qualities that I love soo much..please know nothing or nobody could ever break the bond we share. You are an undeniable part of my being and I love you for everything your not and everything YOU are.......MY SISTER forever!